What is this that I feel? And why do I feel this way? Is it a pain deep down inside the caverns of my soul where one cannot reach? Or is it a joy that is trying to break free of it's bonds to be obtainable? One thing is for sure, it is an insatiable gnawing in my pit. I have not figured out why I feel this way. I search and yet the answer eludes me. I have no conclusion as to why, I can only surmise . My first assumption is that there must be a longing for something missing. A void to be filled if you will. Perhaps it is the pain that is telling me it hurts to be empty. Perhaps it's the joy that wants to fill the void and has been held back. Perhaps it is both. Pain and joy working in unison, each other's Yin and Yang.Two circles intertwined by ebbs and flows of a greater circle. But, to what end? Is this gnawing feeling to go on forever? Or will one overcome the other and complete it's task? If this is so, I would that joy will overcome. Joy is the positive in this. With joy comes many wonderful things. I contemplate. Joy is the fruit of true and complete happiness. Joy, such a wonderful thing to have. Nothing else compares to the feeling it brings. The feeling to fill voids that only joy can fill. What is this? The pain is gone. The feeling I once had has now been replaced by joy. I am filled. I am complete. I search no more. Now I know. I found the answer. Thank you.
